![]() ![]() I denied myself of my true personality because I thought it was not good enough. Now, I realize how sad this situation truly was. What happens if I take off the mask as an adult and I get rejected. Why would I ever want to change that? I want to be like this forever. When I put on that mask, I knew that I could finally fit into the crowd. It took me a long time to develop a personality that felt safe. This terrified me.Īs a kid, I got bullied. Another whole can of worms I need to unpack. I like stability and consistency in my life. My Latest Experience With The Fear of Failure – The Insignificant Soul () I am following my passion in writing this blog and sharing my experiences with you, and I couldn’t ask for more. I’m glad with where I am in my life currently. Money may help, but it’s definitely not everything. A life where you wake up with a smile on your face because you are where you want to be. Secondly, using money as a metric of success is incredibly misleading. A successful life is a life where you can follow your dreams and passions. For all I know, they could be incredibly unhappy behind the screen. There are often times where I won’t take risks or push myself because that endpoint of ‘success’ is so far out of reach. However, I’m started to realize two things.įirstly, as much as I admire ‘successful’ people on social media, I’m only seeing a small glimpse into their life. In fact, I fall back in constantly as an adult. This was a tricky hole to get myself out of. I feared that I would never live up to the expectations (set by myself). We are constantly bombarded with everyone living wonderful lives. Millionaires at 22, buying fancy houses and cares. It’s hard not to compare. There was no chance I was going to let myself become a failure. The truth is that as kids, we have no idea on what being successful means.Ī big cause of this is our exposure to perfection on social media. In reality, failure triggers my fear hardcore.īack then, I believed that I had to be a success as a grown up. There is a saying, ‘Do as I say and not as I do’. Every now and then, I fail. It’s a part of life that we all go through. This is usually enough to get me out a rut.ĥ0 Morning Affirmations To Start An Amazing Day – The Insignificant Soul () By using the power of my voice, I am able to challenge the negative thoughts circling in my head. I have developed a few tactics to use that help me stay grounded in situations like this. Positive affirmations has been a game-changer in these situations. And I did escape, into fantasy games, movies, anything to distract me. Eventually, you overthink all of your options leaving you crippled with indecision.ĭo You Have Analysis Paralysis? | Psychology Today UKĮvery time this happens, my inner child comes out. ![]() The stress has been piling on for weeks as you struggle to plan how to do all the tasks simultaneously. You have 4 deadlines coming up for a new job in a competitive field. My fear of growing up was completely justified because, as an adult, I am now entirely responsible for my existence. Nowadays, it has simply taken a new form, analysis paralysis.įor those of you curious as to what this is, let me paint you a picture. Bills aren’t going to pay themselves and groceries are way more expensive than I would have imagined. As an independent adult, you can’t skip work because you’re bored. The responsibility placed on your shoulder at work cannot compare to stress I had at school. Especially in this pandemic period where socialising is out of the picture. Replace school with work and you’ve got a perfect match. Life was extremely simple back then and I never really appreciated it.Īs I enter the working world, I’m realising something. However, I had a pretty consistent routine. I would say that I was a responsible kid growing up. ![]() I’m doing this with the intention of showing you and myself that no matter how awful a situation may be, given enough time and clarity, you may gain a new perspective. I constantly had negative thoughts about becoming a failure, losing myself, crumbling under the pressure.Īs an adult now, I thought it would be good to look back on these fears and see whether they match up to my current reality. In fact, seeing the kind of responsibilities that my parents dealt with instilled the fear of growing up within me. As a kid, I really struggled with the fact that I would eventually become an adult. ![]()
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